有時候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人說話，只想一個人靜靜的發呆

有時候，突然覺得心情煩躁，看什麼都覺得不舒服，心裡悶的發慌，拼命想尋找一個出口

有時候，發現身邊的人都不了解自己，面對著身邊的人，突然覺得說不出話

有時候，感覺自己與世界格格不入，曾經一直堅持的東西一夜間面目全非

有時候，突然很想逃離現在的生活，想不顧一切收拾自己簡單的行李去流浪

有時候，別人突然對你說，我覺得你變了，然後自己開始百感交集

有時候，想一個人躲起來脆弱，不願別人看到自己的傷口

有時候，突然很想哭，卻難過的哭不出來

有時候，夜深人靜，突然覺得不是睡不著，而是固執地不想睡

有時候，走過熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一個人的臉

有時候，明明自己心裡有很多話要說，卻不知道怎樣表達

有時候，覺得自己擁有著整個世界，一瞬間卻又覺得自己其實一無所有

真的只是有時候，明明自己身邊很多朋友，卻依然覺得孤單

有時候，很想放縱自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地發一次瘋

有時候，突然找不到自己，把自己丟的無影無踪

有時候，心裡突然冒出一種厭倦的情緒，覺得自己很累很累

有時候，看不到自己未來的樣子，迷茫的不知所措

有時候，發現自己一夜之間長大了

有時候，聽到一首歌，就會突然想起一個人

有時候，希望能找個人好好疼愛自己，渴望一種安全感，可當
那個可以疼你的人出現的時候，你卻偏執地退隱

有時候，別人誤解了自己有口無心的一句話，心裡鬱悶的發慌

有時候，被別人傷害，嘴上講沒事，其實心裡難過的要死

有時候，常常在回憶裡掙扎，有很多過去無法釋懷

有時候，很容易感動別人的關懷，有時候卻麻木地像個笨蛋

有時候，看著時間一點點流逝，任憑嘆息，自己卻無能為力

其實，有時候，真的會想這麼多...
裝沉默， 跟陌生人講心裡話。對於在乎你的，不想讓他們擔心，有時候，沒有消息就是一種好消息。

其實，很想說"我很好"，或許是昧著心說謊，也只是想把最燦爛的一面，放在每個人對自己印象的首頁

丟了的自己，要記得撿回來……

。。。珍惜。。。

男孩有一個女友，


她長得普普通通，不像有的女孩很會打扮、
會彈琴、會作菜，但還算溫柔體貼。


她會每晚幫他買好晚餐送到他家，因為她說她順路。
她會在每次吵架之後先撒撒嬌，求他原諒她的任性。
她會在他睡前打一通電話說晚安，說她很需要人陪。
她會在他和朋友出門玩時，在門口揮手和大家說再見。

她很懂事，但男孩並不特別喜歡她，
只是有一個女朋友，總比沒有人陪好。
可是這樣的日子久了，男孩也有點不耐煩。

所以，
男孩開始嫌棄晚餐的菜難吃。
吵架總是用很難聽的話罵她。
每一天只等她主動打電話來。
和朋友出門時完全不接電話。

甚至當著大家的面對她大小聲，約會遲到，找不到人。

可是女朋友都沒有生氣，她會垂頭喪氣，
但是隔天就立刻帶著世故和溫暖的笑容回來。
他甚至連她的眼淚都沒看過。

堅強
也是她女友的個性優點，
但他就是嫌她這點不夠女人。

一直到有一天，女友的生日，男孩忘記了。
但是很奇怪，到了隔天傍晚，女友竟然連一通電話都沒打來。

平常這個時候，她早就該帶著晚餐出現，
一邊說：「對不起喔！我又晚到了啦！工作好累」，
然後穿著那個破洞的牛仔褲，一副很狼狽的模樣。

出了客廳，卻看到門縫底下塞了一個信封，
上面註明是給他的，他認得，這是女友的筆跡，
男孩打開信封，裡頭的信紙上寫了一段話：

親愛的，你知道「被愛」是怎樣嗎？

被愛是，每天下班都有人幫你準備好晚餐。
被愛是，每一次爭吵責任都是在對方身上。
被愛是，每一天都會接到對方關心的電話。
被愛是，每一次和朋友出門都無牽無掛。
被愛是 ，不管做錯了什麼事，對方不是罵你，
而是帶著包容的微笑抱著你。

親愛的，那你知道「去愛」是怎麼樣嗎？

去愛是，即使每天為了準備晚餐匆忙下班，
甚至趕到出車禍都不讓對方知道，怕他擔心。

去愛是，即使知道對方無理取鬧，
推卸責任，卻忍著心痛主動說抱歉。

去愛是，即使每次打電話過去，對方總是口氣很差、
不耐煩或不接電話，還是沒辦法忍住不打。

去愛是，即使對方和朋友出門，自己很擔心，
還是在大家面前微笑，為了給心愛的人面子。

去愛是，即使明明知道對方完全不愛你，
還是義無反顧，流著眼淚去愛他，卻絕不會表現出一點難過。

我一直用盡全力「去愛」，但現在我累了，
我需要找一個人讓我「被愛」。
所以再見了，希望你能找到讓你「去愛」的人。


讀完這封信，男孩才知道，
原來「被愛」的人是那麼幸福，而「去愛」的人是這麼辛苦。
而他這一刻才發現，肚子餓了，房間裡竟然沒有現用的晚餐。

而他這一刻才發現，原來每一次吵架，
對的人從來是女友，但她從來不力爭到底。

而他這一刻才發現，昨晚睡覺前為什麼覺得心裡不踏實，
原來是因為女友沒和他說晚安。

而他這一刻才發現，為什麼他的朋友都喜歡他女友，
因為她用心的顧慮到男方的一切，包括朋友的感受。

而他這一刻才發現，原來女友照顧他的方式這麼無微不至，
以致於他完全沒發現，甚至感到不耐煩。

「被愛」的人，請記得要惜福，不是每一個「去愛」的人
都會永遠毫無悔恨的為你付出。

不要以為一通電話、一個笑容、一頓晚餐，都是應該的。

因為「去愛」的人花了多少心血在這些事情上，
「被愛」的人永遠不會知道。

结。。束。。

开始时的轰轰烈烈。。可没想得那么多。。渐渐。。问题一个一个的浮现。。然而。。疑问像空气中的灰尘。。隐隐约约的冒出。。现在。。尘埃已把一切封锁了。。终于。。都是时候划上个句点了。。

New Year 2012!! Rocks....!!

The begin of New Year of 2012 was....Awesome!! I had taken some of the Fireworks Photo in a random Highway With no One Blocking my angle!! woots....had done few things in the starting New Year!!

Taken Pictures in a speeding Highway!!!
The fireworks are present at the TOP of my Head!!
Shouted Crazily and Loudly of I love you!!

Wish that this Year could be a Nice and Wonderful Year!!!!!

Arthur Christmas .. .. another Story behind ~

The day ends with full of happiness that attach with the movie of Arthur Christmas...let's see...how would it be...if i had make a request from Santa that claim of my Christmas present... does it really works.. hmmp~

Wish that it's last.....long.....ever ~ ~ never ~ ~ ending ~

Lang Tengah day 2 - Hero? haha

hmm.. the date of 24 of September!! can said its a Special day of the trip!! cus i did sth i nvr think i will do b4!! become a HERO? woo...a hero man~not superman,not badman, not even ultraman~ haha....but it was..swimming man~!!oh shit... that's really the funniest hero story of mine... 1st time become a hero... and yet.. that's so much funny screen appear in my mind now~!! let,s start the story of the day~!!

Morning woke up like a death fish and prepared to go for the activity of jungle tracking... bt actually it was climbing hills...>.<" when reach the top of side... we can view the island which is Redang island~ the mountain behind our group photo,and the people is decreasing...due to late sleep and lazy to climb.... ntg special in the morning.

Before lunch, we are burring one of the friend "Conan" inside the sand and make it like a turtle shape..have lots fun with them~!

after lunch.. we as usual prepare for the snorkeling section~in different places!! and a few of friend lent a waterproof camera to use it for shooting under the water... cost RM80~~per 5-6hrs... so we took it to shoot in water~! awesome try~! i am starting to fall in love with UNDERWATER SHOOTING~!! it make me crazy !! i am imaging my future will carrying my DSLR wife and diving together plus shooting the colorful sea creatures!! and yet.. this is not very special yet~!!

The special time reached~!! i was~!!! i was......saving someone from the sea~!! awww~!!! Duno should say happy or wad... when the real timing in the situation.. got no time to happy but got lots of time to worry that am i really can safe him!! i super worry if sth bad really happen~!! how am i suppose to do~!! that's really dangerous!! lucky i got wear the safety jacket~!!! if not....me n him will say bye bye to the world~!!!!! the story begin like this... when the group back to resort from snorkeling... few of us still continue snorkeling nearby out resort~! by that time... tat time.. tat time...me(with safety jacket) and another boy and gal (without jacket) was snorkeling kinda far from the other friend.... Cus i was looking for those beautiful fish and continue discover to the deep sea... far form the beach~~! when i knw it is kinda far...and i was turning back tatime... i heard the other two friend said that they wanna go back too...then suddenly heard " H..E..L..P" and i saw the guy was shouting at the same time pulling the girls head into the water.... ((hey..when i saw this screen,in my mind was pop out...ARE THEY PLAYING??)) den i stop moving and look at them few minutes... after that i saw the guy stil like playing the water...throw the water... (( i was thinking why they said wanna go back but still playing at there...)) THEN now the Girl pop out and shouted "JIU....MING...." den i am so stupid and create a question of   ""  ARE YOU SERIOUS??"" and the girl answer me "YES YES YES....HELP" den i try my fastest way to swim near them and pul the boy to me....that time he like saw a HOPE!! he pull me very fast and hug my neck den press my head down to the water~!! <>then i hold him carefully swim to the beach side and find a place to land and let him to rest.....when he start sitting on the rock area in the sea...he start vomit~! and what i am doing was just......saw the DELICIOUS DISH pass by my body and then....A LOT OF FISH!! is A LOT OF FISH come near to me and few seconds... all the dishes that he provide to the fish was CLEAR STOCK!! the fish had enjoy their free meal front of my eye~!! then wait him really feel more comfortable already and me and the girl bring back him to the beach side and let him rest on the sand area...yet the so-called-HERO story.....FUNNY until myself also cannot accept~!!

Lang Tengah

a friend of mine had organized a trip to Lang Tengah, which place at terengganu and the whole group of friend was sitting inside the bus to kuala terengganu about 8 hours~!! Finally we reach the jetty part and wait for our boat come over to fetch us.

it was an awesome trip that the resort just had another group of student~ so means that's a place that can enjoy my time without any annoying sound and people. ;)

The 1st day after we reach resort, having out lunch, then we waiting the time 2-4pm for snorkeling~! yeahoo~!! Actually going a seaside got not much activity but just snorkeling snorkeling snorkeling~!! that's a lot of beautiful fish around bt so sad that my DSLR cannot swim together with me.... Yes, it can swim with me but the casing of the dslr will killing me with no sound..it cost about RM10,000 for just the casing of dslr to let them go into water....crazy man~!!
After went back from snorkeling, i ask few friend to walk around the beach side but they were all tired and plan to take a nap.. so i decided to walk alone with my wife's dslr from the resort to another side of the resort...i cant believe myself that can walk through half of the Lang Tengah Island by my own leg..hahah... at 1st i though to look at the side of the island hidden any nice view.... bt end up got nothing but just some big rocks and some shy crab resting on the rocks....

after dinner... that's the night time.. we having our beer on the bridge...taking secret....i love that time~!!~!! tat moment~!! so relax.... that's the ending of the 1st day........2Bcontinue~